Robert's Deployment

Robert's Deployment is ONLY 12 days away & boy am I feeling stressed. The second time seems so much harder. And the decisions this time, do we bring him home for two weeks mid tour and have to say goodbye a second time because that really sucked last deployment. Do we travel to Texas to spend four days with him and add a third good bye to the mix? Just a mess of emotion and stress is what I am, but I try to keep it inside to protect Robert and the boys. I am trying to be strong, but what do you do. Sometimes I wish this was all a dream and calgon could take me away.