So, it has been over a month since I've written. What has happened????? Let us see I turned 40, then Ryan turned sixteen on August 25th. That same week he started daily doubles for soccer & made the JV team as a starter. The boys started school. Then we went to Seattle to watch the 49ers get killed by the Seahawks, which sucked for us because we are 49er fans. But, we went with Curt, Candy & LeeAnna and they were happy because they like the Seachickens.
That takes us up to September 12th, so that week we started church youth group every Wednesday. Then this week, we started flag football & cub scouts. On Monday, I start school at EOU as well. I am going online to finish my prereqs for the Masters in Teaching program which I will enter next summer. So, life has been extremely busy & we like it that way. It makes time go by fast.
Robert is well & is coming home in 16 days for 15 days. It won't be long but it will be great. I can't wait to wrap my arms around him. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will write more later, but it is bedtime & hopefully time for Skype with Bob. TTYL.
The Dowell Clan
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Turning 40
So, tomorrow is the day....40 is here. I am excited, sad & scared. I am excited because it is my birthday & I am going to see my friends at my Miche bag party. I am sad because my husband & soul mate won't be here to share it with me at such a big milestone. I am scared because what will the next ten years bring. It is scary to think about. This year alone, Christian graduates & will hopefully be on his way to being on his own & his own path. Ryan is a junior and Caiman is going to be a second grader. Life goes by to quick but it is what you make it & I am determined that there won't be a mid life crisis this decade, not like the last decade.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Time to Go
So, at 1:23 am local time in Union I received the phone call I didn't want. The members of B Co 1/168 AVN were leaving Texas headed on their journey to Afghanistan. They were boarding the plane & headed out. After the phone call, I literally felt a piece of my heart break & I can feel it missing because I know it is on that plane headed to Afghanistan. I know this time is better than last but I still don't want them to go.
To all of the unit, I am proud to support you and your endeavors in fighting & supporting Operation Enduring Freedom 10. Be safe & God speed to you!!!
To my hero, my husband Robert, I love you with all my heart. You are my best friend & I know that everyone has a soul mate because you are mine. I am so lucky to have you in my life. I am so proud of you & what you do for all of us. Come home soon & safe!!!!
To all of the unit, I am proud to support you and your endeavors in fighting & supporting Operation Enduring Freedom 10. Be safe & God speed to you!!!
To my hero, my husband Robert, I love you with all my heart. You are my best friend & I know that everyone has a soul mate because you are mine. I am so lucky to have you in my life. I am so proud of you & what you do for all of us. Come home soon & safe!!!!
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Update from The Dowell Clan
So, it has been a long while since I blogged. It has been such a rat race here that I am not sure which direction I am going most days. Inventory is Tuesday at work & so work has been really crazy. I've got to work two really long days the next two days, but when it's over I get four glorious days off. It sucks though cause Robert goes on a 96 hour pass tomorrow & I won't get to see him. I really miss him so much.
So the boys are doing well in soccer. Caiman has over 10 goals this year & him & Brenna are definitely leading their team. It is great to see how much fun they are having. Ryan has yet to have a goal this year, but his team is undeafeted. They are very intense & very good. He has 3 more games then he is done until high school practice starts.
We are going to Silverwood this coming weekend & then Caiman & Brenna's birthday bash is on the 7th. Caiman is so excited. I can't believe he is going to be 7 already.
Christian is just hanging out. He likes to play his guitar & video games. I think he is waiting for school to start so he can see his friends.
Robert is just waiting to leave Texas now. Sometime in August, but no dates yet.
As for me, just working & trying to survive. I have a hard time thinking we are really doing this again. I keep thinking he's just gonna walk through that door at any minute. The bed is lonely, the house is busy but I miss my best friend in the whole world. There is a hole in my heart that won't be filled until he comes home. (Sigh)
Some day we need to figure out as a country how to make deployment better on every family ever involved. Well, life is good for now. I'll write more after our Silverwood trip, can't wait. Talk to you all later.
So the boys are doing well in soccer. Caiman has over 10 goals this year & him & Brenna are definitely leading their team. It is great to see how much fun they are having. Ryan has yet to have a goal this year, but his team is undeafeted. They are very intense & very good. He has 3 more games then he is done until high school practice starts.
We are going to Silverwood this coming weekend & then Caiman & Brenna's birthday bash is on the 7th. Caiman is so excited. I can't believe he is going to be 7 already.
Christian is just hanging out. He likes to play his guitar & video games. I think he is waiting for school to start so he can see his friends.
Robert is just waiting to leave Texas now. Sometime in August, but no dates yet.
As for me, just working & trying to survive. I have a hard time thinking we are really doing this again. I keep thinking he's just gonna walk through that door at any minute. The bed is lonely, the house is busy but I miss my best friend in the whole world. There is a hole in my heart that won't be filled until he comes home. (Sigh)
Some day we need to figure out as a country how to make deployment better on every family ever involved. Well, life is good for now. I'll write more after our Silverwood trip, can't wait. Talk to you all later.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Update on Hectic
So alot has happened since I last wrote. We went camping for the 4th of July, it was a blast. The boys had a lot of fun. My allergies went into overdrive & overtook my systems. That has been fun. Ryan & Caiman have started soccer & are having a great time. Ryan has been invited along with my niece LeeAnna to tryout for the state select soccer team. I know Ryan is for sure trying out on the weekend of August 14 & 15 in Salem. We are gearing up for inventory at work so that is an adventure & headache all in one. The boys and I are waiting for it to be over so we can go to Silverwood Amusement Park in Post Falls, ID, with my sister Candy & my nieces & nephew. It will be a good four days away. Then the next week is Caiman & my niece Brenna's 7th birthday bash. Then we go to Salem. Then we have a couple weeks til Ry's Bday weekend, thinking about going to Wallowa Lake for a day. That week high school soccer for Ryan starts & since he's eligible this year we are hoping he makes varsity. Then its Labor Day weekend, probably camping again hopefully with more family & friends. Then on the 12th of September we are hopefully gonna be attending the Seahawks Vs. 49ers in Seattle with my sister & brother Curt & Candy, and my niece LeeAnna that will be a major blast. So it has been hectic & will continue to be until school gets into full swing on the 7th of September. That's how we like it though.
Robert is well. He is currently in a really bad part of New Mexico training. Then back to Fort Hood. He will be there until he leaves for the desert. He is going on a four day pass the end of the month & since I have inventory he will be spending in San Antonio with his dad, uncle Mike, aunt Jeanie, uncle David, cousin Eric & possibly his brother Bobby. So that will be good for him & all of them. He is no longer going to be on the big base in Afghanistan either. The powers at be must have listened to my rambling & despite my honest feelings are moving him to where he is going to do his job. He will be able to fly & he will be happy. He is going to one of the FOBs. I pray that all will be well but now I'll worry just a little more. He should be headed there sometime in early August. We are down to hopefully 333 and a wake up. Cause he's been active for 32 days & he's been gone from Oregon for 30 days. So that's where we stand. More later. Take Care All. Lots of love.
Robert is well. He is currently in a really bad part of New Mexico training. Then back to Fort Hood. He will be there until he leaves for the desert. He is going on a four day pass the end of the month & since I have inventory he will be spending in San Antonio with his dad, uncle Mike, aunt Jeanie, uncle David, cousin Eric & possibly his brother Bobby. So that will be good for him & all of them. He is no longer going to be on the big base in Afghanistan either. The powers at be must have listened to my rambling & despite my honest feelings are moving him to where he is going to do his job. He will be able to fly & he will be happy. He is going to one of the FOBs. I pray that all will be well but now I'll worry just a little more. He should be headed there sometime in early August. We are down to hopefully 333 and a wake up. Cause he's been active for 32 days & he's been gone from Oregon for 30 days. So that's where we stand. More later. Take Care All. Lots of love.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Luck & Bad Days
So, today was not a great day. Ended up having to pull dates for the dairy most of the day because it wasn't getting done. Sometimes I feel like I go 3 steps forward & 20 steps back. And lately at work it seems all back & no forward.
What do you do though? I just keep remembering that I have a greater purpose in life than doing the crap I do now. Hopefully soon I'll start school & be able to achieve that greater purpose in life. And days like today make me miss Bob even more. I just need to see his face & cry on his shoulder cause I had a bad day. When he was here I could always do that and he was always there to help me through it. But now to me I feel like he has more important things to worry about than my bad days.
Don't get me wrong, it's not like he ignores me, but I feel like since he's gone I shouldn't bother him with such petty things because he has an important mission to do that his head needs to be in the right place all the time.
What can I say except that Bob is my rock? And now my rock is in Texas instead of right next to me, so now I have sand or mud next to me & I feel like I am sinking sometimes. I haven't sunk all the way to crying yet like last time, but I do know it sits in the back of my mind.
When am I going to lose it, when am I going to be the basket case? When are the kids going to break? When am I gonna say I can't do this anymore, I am not as strong as everyone thinks I am. I keep waiting for the day, but it never comes so I keep my head above water and wait for the life preserver, but then it never comes.
Then I find out that the last time I could see him before Afghanistan comes, I can't go because it is inventory at work. Now what does that figure? Just my luck. And then I have the day I had and it makes hard not to say "Take this job and shove it." But I need it for my sanity at the moment, whatever sanity that might be.
What do you do though? I just keep remembering that I have a greater purpose in life than doing the crap I do now. Hopefully soon I'll start school & be able to achieve that greater purpose in life. And days like today make me miss Bob even more. I just need to see his face & cry on his shoulder cause I had a bad day. When he was here I could always do that and he was always there to help me through it. But now to me I feel like he has more important things to worry about than my bad days.
Don't get me wrong, it's not like he ignores me, but I feel like since he's gone I shouldn't bother him with such petty things because he has an important mission to do that his head needs to be in the right place all the time.
What can I say except that Bob is my rock? And now my rock is in Texas instead of right next to me, so now I have sand or mud next to me & I feel like I am sinking sometimes. I haven't sunk all the way to crying yet like last time, but I do know it sits in the back of my mind.
When am I going to lose it, when am I going to be the basket case? When are the kids going to break? When am I gonna say I can't do this anymore, I am not as strong as everyone thinks I am. I keep waiting for the day, but it never comes so I keep my head above water and wait for the life preserver, but then it never comes.
Then I find out that the last time I could see him before Afghanistan comes, I can't go because it is inventory at work. Now what does that figure? Just my luck. And then I have the day I had and it makes hard not to say "Take this job and shove it." But I need it for my sanity at the moment, whatever sanity that might be.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Still Going
Life is still rolling along & now it seems we are back into a some what normal pattern, well as normal as deployment can be. I'm back to work, let me tell you how fun that has been. Nothing seems to change in Wal~Mart world anymore unless it just gets worse. I was very happy to see the people I work with because I have a lot of people who are there to help pick me up when I'm down & make me laugh or give me that hug that I so need sometimes.
But, I really miss being at home with the boys. They light up my day even when all they do is fight. I am not sure what I'd do without them. Christian has really taken on the role of an adult. He has been extremely responsible. Ryan is still Ryan. He likes to fight with Caiman just to fight I think. Caiman has had it the hardest. But he is being a trooper, just like his daddy. Robert seems to be doing okay although he's too far away for me to look him in the eye all the time to see for sure. As for me, I have my moments. Night time is hard, after all the boys go to sleep & it's quiet I long to hear his breathing next too me. And as for sleep, not sure what an interrupted night is like. I thought that would be last night, but I forgot to turn the alarm off. Four o'clock on a non work day SUCKS!!!!
I will say the doctor gave me ambien & last weekend I passed out after thinking the boys were in bed & asleep, but not really I guess & they had fun seeing if they could wake mom up with flashlights. I guess I was out. So, now I wait til they are good & asleep before that pill goes down. Lesson learned when they admit to staying up til one in the morning & you have no clue but are only 30 feet away. LOL.
Soccer practice also started this week. Ryan is practicing hard every night and Caiman is playing with his "twin" Brenna. They are having a great time. So the busy season is upon us & for the Dowell Clan that is probably the best thing. Well enough for now, keep checking for news. Lots of love to all.
Kimy
But, I really miss being at home with the boys. They light up my day even when all they do is fight. I am not sure what I'd do without them. Christian has really taken on the role of an adult. He has been extremely responsible. Ryan is still Ryan. He likes to fight with Caiman just to fight I think. Caiman has had it the hardest. But he is being a trooper, just like his daddy. Robert seems to be doing okay although he's too far away for me to look him in the eye all the time to see for sure. As for me, I have my moments. Night time is hard, after all the boys go to sleep & it's quiet I long to hear his breathing next too me. And as for sleep, not sure what an interrupted night is like. I thought that would be last night, but I forgot to turn the alarm off. Four o'clock on a non work day SUCKS!!!!
I will say the doctor gave me ambien & last weekend I passed out after thinking the boys were in bed & asleep, but not really I guess & they had fun seeing if they could wake mom up with flashlights. I guess I was out. So, now I wait til they are good & asleep before that pill goes down. Lesson learned when they admit to staying up til one in the morning & you have no clue but are only 30 feet away. LOL.
Soccer practice also started this week. Ryan is practicing hard every night and Caiman is playing with his "twin" Brenna. They are having a great time. So the busy season is upon us & for the Dowell Clan that is probably the best thing. Well enough for now, keep checking for news. Lots of love to all.
Kimy
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